The Magic of Being an Outlier

Have you always felt…other?

This episode is for the sacred misfits—the ones who grew up unseen, unheard, or unwanted, yet somehow still carry a glimmer of their true light. Through poetic metaphor and soul-deep storytelling, Mahria explores the beauty and pain of being an outlier: the creative, the neurodivergent, the spiritually sensitive.

From childhood memories to the resonant light of the Earth, this is a love letter to those reclaiming their voice, their sovereignty, and their spiritual path.

Transcript

The Magic of Being an Outlier

Hello souls, welcome to another moment in time. I hope you're all doing really, really well tonight, today, this afternoon, wherever and whoever and whenever it is for you.

So I am still going down this alleyway, thinking about ways that we can all feel welcome within our soul and heart. This heart of ours and the feelings that we have when we feel abandoned and unseen, or that magnificent outlier expressional experience.

So for those of you out there who feel like when you shut your eyes, you are sitting on a precipice, hanging over the Grand Canyon and you are surrounded by empty space - for space is what you understand. For you need a lot of space. When you get around people, when they're too close to you, you start to change. All of a sudden you're somebody else. You're people pleasing, you're trying to be this or that.

So I am speaking to those of you right now who feel safe when you are not close to people. I am speaking to the people out there who have experienced and who know deeply what it means to have a hole in your heart. So that could be narcissistic parents. One amazing thing. Severe childhood neglect. And many other forms of abandonment, or it could be all kinds of things. You could be born into a household filled with severe extreme religious fanatics, and you have hair that will never be combed for some reason. It's just like a kind of hair that wants to knot up. Actually, that fills me - I had rats' nest hair. They had to chase me down. Ah man, I was such a good hider, though. They could not find me. Took them all day to find me. They would call and call my name, which is why I can't use my birth name very much. I say it a bit now, but for most of my life, it hurt too much.

Or maybe you were born with, like, different size feet from the rest of your family. Who knows? But this whole feeling of being othered is something so familiar to so many of us.

And I heard something recently that was so beautiful about it. There is this transformational awakening going on here. Okay, for those of you who don't believe that you have a destiny, this is for you. For those of you who feel like you're never gonna amount to anything, this is for you. For those of you who feel like you have all these weird skills that no one's ever gonna want to use or be around - hi. This is for you.

Because most of us, I think, that are creatives or just extreme weirdos, are like freaks, multiple, all kinds of freaks. Yay, hello, pat yourself on the back. Fucking yes! I'm so glad we're on the planet. Do you realize that there wouldn't be much color if we weren't here?

But it went back to this whole thought. So feeling othered, feeling like, "Oh my God." So there is a really good reason for that. So if everyone else is like living and then, like, I'm not everyone else - clearly, things are so much better now than they used to be, but I grew up as everybody else. Everybody else but just myself. Well, until I was a teenager, it wasn't as bad, but...

So there we get to, like, kind of thinking about Michelangelo. Like, he, no matter what, whatever about art, but he looked at that giant, giant square of marble, whatever the slab of marble. And he saw, he could see within, he saw that David was just wanting to be revealed. He just, that sculpture of David, just wanted to be revealed. So all he did was reveal that statue by carving.

So think about that as who you are, the essence of who you are. We just went around it backwards. We were able to come into this place having that raw, revealed sense of self. It was there. And sometimes I think that it was a gift that we were given to have so many layers tried to be shoved upon us because it gave us so much to work against, that raw, that statue, that part of us that was already revealed, fought so hard for autonomy, for sovereignty, to remain that, you know, multicolored daisy, or the outlier, you know, the one beautiful - you have a bunch of white daisies, and you have one that's like, has one petal or something. And just one of those, you know, just the oddity.

But for so long, I grew up in a place in the old culture where it was really not okay. And so I'm so happy that now there's so much more space for all of us to be okay with that. But I think still, especially those of you who are 40, 50, 60, 70, whatever, we grew up when it wasn't okay to be fully revealed and fully unhidden, unbidden, being ourselves.

But what I was saying also, what a gift it is, because you have all these people that are trotting the normalcy or, you know, accepting dogma or accepting the, you know, Puritan or accepting morays or values that were gifted from other places which aren't serving them well, but are causing an immense unhappiness.

So you can picture that as like a form, like a box, or - I think I have a better way to put it. Imagine a piece of paper with a dot, like, you have a dot journal, dots, just dots, say a thousand dots on your table. And the dots are all just these little dots, and they're fine just laying there on the table or being on the paper. They're familiar with it, they're familiar with it. And yet, you know what? They're bound. They're bound by being those dots on that table and they need to be shook up because guess what? We all need to awaken to our inner truths.

And the more beings of us that can step into our enlightenment, our light worker capability capacity - because that term, I really didn't understand for a long time. And I've sort of been hearing it the last few months, light worker. And when I used to do performances, I would call them “Sounds of light," because I would be singing the light, because I could see the light in the melody. And again, that was my own thing, and there wasn't anybody to talk about it, except for the few amazing people that came to the shows. Even then, we didn't talk about it.

But light, that vibrational, resonant frequency of all that is - the more people that are able to tune into that higher frequency, the light frequency that is transformative, that is awakening, that does allow for that true self to arise, to come forth, to be able to speak the honest truth and be honest with ourselves, and not what other people have spoken for us to see, be, say, or state.

But the more of us, then we can go onto that table with those dots and sort of blow with breath and they can move all around or go out in the air, be unbound by the form that they've been given, free that form and allow them to have that ability to find their spiritual sovereignty, to find their way of being connected to source. And that could be me just putting some dogma onto that, and you can just, you don't have to accept that at all, but I do believe that the more of us that are awakening, especially communicating with our Earth, and with all the light beings, and all the critters, and all that which does vibrate at a resonant frequency - I just love saying that, resonant frequency - but is connected, connected to that heart space of this earth and of this beautiful planet that we are on.

I didn't get a lot of that from my home as a child, but I did get it when I went outside and I sat on the dirt as a child. I got it. I received it, and it even makes me cry now because the immense amount of love that I have received from our Mother Earth is - what can I say? It's just unconditional, unconditional love. And I think that is the love that I hope that those beings that are stuck in the dots, that they will be able to really embrace that.

I get sad when I think that all the music on the radio is about loving people. I just think, oh, okay, there's so much more to love. And not only that, there is so much more that is waiting for us to love it.

Have an amazing day, souls.